ideaofhiodorichard
justiadeher
draasortofetingplace;shehadageniusforitoverandoveragainhehadseenhertakesora,tu
hiup;sethioinginfinitenuersofdullpeoplengloratedroundherofursebutoddunexpectedpeopletuedup;anartistsotis;sotisaer;queerfishinthatatsphereandbehinditallhating,leaving
cards,beingkindtopeople;runningabouthbunchesofflowers,littlepresents;soandsousthaveanaircushion;arealdrainonherstrength;allthatinteabletrafficthatenofhersortkeepup;butshediditgenuinely,fronaturalinstinctoddlyenough,sheostthoroughgoingscepticshehadevert,andpossiblythisakeuptoacunt
forher,sotransparentinsoableinothers,possiblyshesaidtoherself,asedrace,chainedtoasinkingshipherfavouritereadingasagirlheywere
fondofthesenauticaltaphors,asthehingisabadjoke,letus,atanyrate,doourpart;tigatethesufferingsofourfelloethedungeonhflowersand
aircushions;beasdecentashegods,
shanthaveitalltheiroionbeingthatthegods,whoneverlostachanceofhurting,thanliveswereseriouslyputoutif,allthesa,youbehavedlikealadythatphasecadirectlyaftersylviasdeaththathorribleaffairtoseeyouroerkilledbyafallingtreealljustinparrysfaultallhiscarelessnessbeforeyourveryeyes,agirltooonthevergeoflife,thestgiftedoftheclarissaalotuone
bitterlatershesopositiveperhaps;shethoughttherewerenogods;noonee;andsosheevolvedthisatheistsreligionofdoinggoodforthesakeofgoodness
andofursesheenjoyedlifeienselyituretoenjoythoughgoodnessonlyknoeresketch,
heoftenfelt,thatevenhe,afteralltheseyears,uldkeofclarissaanyhohereteessinher;noneofthatsenseofralvirtueensheenjoyed
practicallyeverythingifyouhherinhydeparknowasabedoftulips,nobulator,noeabsurdlittle
drashedeuponthespurofthentverylikely,shewouldhavetalkedtothoselovers,ifshehadthoughtthenhappyshehadasenseofedythate,butsheneededpeople,
alobringitout,htheinevitableresultthatshefritteredhertiaheseincessant
partiesofhers,talkingnonsense,sayingsthingsshedidntan,bluntingtheedgeofhed,losingherdiscrinationtheresheeold
bufferightbeusefultodalloostappalling
boresineuropeorincaelizabethandeverythingstgiveohersheehe
other
inher,asilentstolidcreature,atterofurse,lethertherkeafussofher,andthensaid“yigonow”likeachildoffour;goingoff,clarissaexplained,ixtureofasentandprideselfseedtorouseinher,to
playhoan
oldfogy,laughedatherthersfriendsahthe
pensationofgroingoutofregents
park,andholdinghishatinhand,plythis;thatthepassionsreinasstrongasever,butonehasgainedatlastthepohaddsthesupreflavourtoexistence,thepoakingholdofexperience,oftuingitround,slohelight
aterriblenfessionithishatonagain,butno
theageoffiftythreeonesorelifeitself,
everyntofit,everydropofit,here,thisinstant,nohesun,inregentspark,uchindeedae
ooshorttobringout,nohatonehadacquiredthepohefullflavour;toextraeaning;
uuchless
personalitpossiblethatheshouldeversufferagainasclarissahaddehiufferforhoursatatipraygodthatoneghtsaythesethingshoutbeingoverheard,forhoursanddaysheneverthoughtofdaisy
ulditbethatheeeringthesery,
thetorture,theextraordinarypassionofthosedaysitthingaltogetherachpleasanterthingthetruthbeing,ofurse,thatnoandthatperhapshereasonwhy,
heshipactuallysailed,hefeltanextraordinaryrelief,ednothingsochastobealone;ofindallherlittleattentionscigars,notes,arugforthevoyageinhiscabineveryoneiftheye;onedoesntpeopleafter
fifty;onedoesntentheyarepretty;thats
ostnoffiftyerhought,iftheywere
honest
butthentheseastonishingaotionburstingintotearsthising,hataboutuldclarissahavethoughtof
hihoughthifoolpresubly,notforthefirsttiitwasjealousythatofitjealousyhsurvivesevery
otherpassionofnkind,peterhought,holdinghispocketknifeatarlengthshehadbeenetingjororde,daisysaidinherlastletter;saiditonpurposehekneakehiealous;heuldseehere,
sheuldsaytohurthiandyetitdenodifference;hewasfuriousallthispotherofingtoenglandandseeinglaarryher,buttopreventherfroarryinganybodyelsethattorturedhithateoverhi
sold,sointentonherdressoreveritshe
ghthavesparedhitoapering,
snivellingoldassbuten,hethought,shuttinghispocketknife,dontknoeaningofitton
clarissaoldasanici
